In B.O.R.I.N.G mode

Haloooo dear bloggieeee:) im damn bored ohh. At Papar now. Sda lha line celcom cne gilaa2 POOR. Txting pn susa. Hailohhh :/ Hm. Wht to do ek? Ohh eyaa. Meher eh c Erick tuh. Whtderrr man! Im not ur sis! Nda prnah2 pn sa M.A.U .. Hishhhh. Problem ehh. Hilg stu bro, dpt bro bru. Tp yg ne bari galiii. To be honest, he's nice.. Friendly. I like the way he is. But he hve diz strange feelings. He said if im not his sis, surely he'll ask me out. Wants to hug me lha. Pastue cket2 plan mw jmpa. Like a "date" knunn.Pleaseee lha. Aiyeee.. At 1st im okay wif tht. Always think positive. Tp lma2 makin mnjd2 sda dy. Tapujii kn. hahaha :P #So bad ohh me :D oke lha. Mw mamam dluan. Byee :) ILY soooo muchhhh

"Sad but NOT regret".. :')

Hyee :) IMY darlaaaa >.< so damn much.. Sorry lma ta story. 
I've been facing wif lots of probs. But now im okay :) Oke, now let me talk.. 

Its been.. emm.. entah how many days we didn’t contact each other. And im hoping tht we’ll stay like diz.. coz im starting to forget him. No need to mention his name. ANONYMOUS. But there's still a hint though.

Briefly, our relation went wrong. But not spcl pn. Frankly, its my fault. Err.. I think laa. I suffocated him wif my bullshits. Yes, I admit I over-interrupted his life. Though I knew he’s busy there. To him, Im just an annoying, useless, life suffocating, little twerp tht gives a "pain in the butt". Yes. I knew it. Im sure wif it. Cuz I can feel it.. 

But I didn’t mean to.. U see, I was just trying to be a nice..loving.. and caring lil sys.. I was just trying to protect THE relation. Dont want it to break. Dont want the distance between us to seperate us.. Don’t want it to end by keeping in touch wif him. Wrong ka pla? 

Well, sorry then :( Clearly, my plans didn’t work quite like i wanted. In fact, it went out really WRONG. Know why? Cuz it turn out to be a STUPID plan.. Tht i didnt realize from the beginning. And it ends wif even more PATHETICALLY.. Me, requesting to stop being his lil sys. 

I don’t know why I was damn emosii tht nite. I was EGO. Maybe I was influenced wif wht he had once told me. He said he’s ultra ego. Cruel. Not a good bro. Tht made me hate him moreeee.. 

Then HAHA for me :’) Sndri sedihh. So much for my hepy ending ~ No use of BOO-HOO MOMENT. Yep. I deserve diz, rite? Cant deny, im sad. Sad but not regret :) maybe diz is the best for both of us. Maybe there’s something even more bad will happen if it didn’t end. Everything happens for a reason, rite? Hahaha :D 

To be honest, I didn’t quite remember when it all ends. I mean the date. I forgot.. I just remember when it all started o.O .. #feeling awkward here. Hahaha. But thts a good thing lha. 

Yeahhh~ atlast, Jo manage to take it easy :) Thank God.. im starting a new chapter. I’ll reduce my trust to ppls from 100% to 80%. And I’ll try not to love someone terribly. Excpt my dearest family an U, Jesus :3 Hm. Okayyy.. Enough lha. I talked too much. Hahaha xP Last thing to say ;

Bye MIF. Byee LNX. And goodbyeee.. BRO :’)  

***THE END***

I really miss u );

"Hye! Its me. Eza. Tanx f0e da k0ala. Cute! 

Sme as pyn pnya jga. I wan da dffrnt one. Usee! Juz j0ke. 
Hehe. N tanx f0e da wish luck t0o. I h0pe cn tke picha 0s0 wif u at 1001 nite tue, 

tp msa xmgizinkn. If u wan st0ry wif me, bule pla. Y x dtg d0rm. But its t0o l8 da kn. S0kay, if mw, we cn txt o chat t. K?"

22-Nov-2011

12:00:33 p.m.

#100% copypaste. 1st msg from Ka Eza. 
Fyi, i nvr delete it. But the reason i copied it the exact msg, is tht maybe 1 day i'll dlete it. Who knows, rite?? 

 I respect my senior ne. Sgt2.. but it seems like we won't be frens anymore. She never replied my texts. Not even a single one. I know tht she's trying to forget all her memories wif bro. All things tht related to bro. But why me? U've blocked my fb. Ta sngka pla kaka tlmpau mrh smpai men block2 urg. Sorry sgt3 if I ever hurt ur feelings. Really, i didn't mean it. Ta sngja bha. And honestly, i dont know why.. i miss ur jolly txts. U said i can txt or chat wif u. But why u nvr replied my txt? And how can i chat wif u when its clear tht u blocked me. Huhuhu. Sad.. coz u're truly a great senior. Sgt baik. Tida pnah pn mind kslhn jr. Sa slalu kagum ma kaka coz full pckage. Athletic, smart.. and pretty! Every gurl's dreams :) i juz wanna say.. IM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING THT I'VE DONE WRONG :( pls forgive me.. But if kaka x dpt maafkn sa, it's okay. i totally undrstnd ('; Thnx for being a nice senior slma ne. i really apprciate it ^^ k lha. tht's enuff for today. I feel calmer and lighter now :) Byeeee ! 

 P/s ; Hepy Eid Mubarak, dear bloggy & fellow readers :) 

What a Confession! :(

 Heyy! Wanna know something?? You know my lil eyann, rite? Yeahh. I ody showed u. Well, he made a huge confession. Yesss. I do love him. But as a lil bro! not moreeee for goodness sake! Im quite irritated by his confession though I act like im totally okay wif tht. Hmphh.. He said he was jelous at the moment he knew im wif Myams. So, he made an express decision to stop being my lil :: 21-Aug-2012, 12.32 p.m. :: Well.. im okay wif tht. And his excuse really shocking me. Like.. wht derrrrr ne budk ==’ mad ka apa. Then by 18.45 p.m. on the same day, he wanted to be my Lil back. And I was like.. HAHAHAHAHAHA xD pndai pn mncari blk. But my feelings towards him is diff now. Not like bfore coz I really treated him like my REAL lil bro tw. Now tht I know his feelings towards me, im quite disgusted .. Sorry to say, Lil. But u made me feel diz way :P I’ll try to forget about it lha k? Hehehehe. K lha. Wanna stop blogging jap. Hot ody my lappy ne. Lol. 

Tatatatatatataaaaa :D XOXO 

Doa Mengubah Segala Sesuatu.. :)

 You are the Way, the Truth and the Life  

SAAT KEADAAN SEK’LILINGKU

ADA DI LUAR KEMAMPUANKU

KU BERDIAM DIRI MENCARI-MU

DOA MENGUBAH SEGALA SESUATU

SAAT KENYATAAN DI DEPANKU

MENGECEWAKAN PERASAANKU

KU MENUTUP MATA MEMANDANG-MU

S’BAB DOA MENGUBAH SEGALA SESUATU

DOA ORANG BENAR BILA DIDOAKAN, DENGAN YAKIN, BESAR KUASANYA

DAN TIAP DOA YANG LAHIR DARI IMAN BERKUASA MENYELAMATKAN

S’PERTI MATA AIR DI TANGAN-MU

MENGALIR KE MANAPUN KAU MAU

TIADA YANG MUSTAHIL DI MATA-MU

DOA MENGUBAH SEGALA SESUATU

GOD BLESS <3 AMEN 

 Me vs Lil Eyann >.< 

 Heyy, bloggie~ Long time no write2, rite? Hahaha. Weird much.. Ohh, yeah. I would luv to present to you my beloved Lil bro :) Fyi, ne budk sgt lha MANJA! Shocking, rite? Me oso. Hahaha. But I like the way he treats me. As if he respect me as her big sister. Really! He’s such an angel.. caring Lil bro. For me lha. Though he’s a notty boy. Tht I know :P Honestly. Before we bcame siblings, he’s very2 really2 truly2 ANNOYING! I admit, okay? Sorry deq :) but u know wht? Above all tht, im glad to take him as my lil bro. And i enjoy being his sister. Just luv him so much.. Wanna know why? Coz he’s my one & only lil bro tw. I don’t hve any.. I really2 want one! But wht can I do, rite? Hmph.. One day, I know tht we’ll hve a great time together. Where we enjoy & appreciate our times together.. I really hope tht moment would come sooner or later :) before I end my high school life.. Sounds creepy + sad.. Hahaha :D okay. Thts enuf for now. Just wanna show u my Notty Lil ne :) Oritee. Tatatatataaaaa ^_________^y 

Musixx = Life !

 Music is my BESTfriend :) 

 Express feelings by listening to musixx? Thts me. Layan lagu ikut mode. Hahaha. If im in serenade mode, lgu jiwang lhaa d dgr. If frustrated, A7x lha yg d carii. True diz! Kekeke. Can't live without music. 

 i would say the same thing to ppl diz species. Lol xD 

Honestly, i really miss Jason & Ravel playing guitar in the claz..I enjoy listening their tune. Nvr once i imagine they'll switch school. When they both gone, our class felt empty. Less craziness. Boredness overwhelmed..Huhuuu. Felt hell. Miss them both..esp Jason. My ex..tht always sotttt. Lol. Miss him ;( .. He nvr shows sadness depan sa. But many told me tht he actly frust wif my decision;- to break. Almost every nite, he would play guitar. To release tension. Jiwangg.. Haha. Felt guilty lha jgaaa. But its okay for me. Atleast we're still friends & nvr still contactinggg :) and i'll make sure i won't forget diz date; 12.11.11 - 13.03.12 ~ Although ta lamaa. Hahahahaaa ..

 Hujan Kemarin - Taxi Band :)

Bro obsessed wif this song. Sgtttt. It's really meaningful to him. He told me tht it reminds him of someone..I bet they must had a sweet love story dluuu, rite? Tht's why he loves this song so muchhhh. And i can tell tht bro is a romantic kinda guy. He sure is..maybe the quote; The hottest love has the coldest ends is trueee. Saddd :( He told me tht he was tired & afraid to love again..Don't wnt the past to repeat. But i hope..i reliii do hope tht he will find someone spcial there. A right girl..tht understand him..tht can put back a sincere smile on his face :) Sooner or later. And i hope they'll last longggg. He's my bro & i love him dearly. I wish all the best of him...Gbu~ 

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